I feel sad for you OP, you are a true believer in a lie. It's sad to see someone so taken advantage of by a publishing company. You may not post again, but I know you will read this, as you are too consumed with judging yourself righteous, to not come back to read.
i do get angry because so many believe the lies spewed by the Watchtower, in doing so ruin their own lives and those of their families. I no longer need anyone to run my life for me, I've got it handled, and am happy. But being angry occasionally at injustices heaped upon people I care about, is normal, you should try it sometime, just being normal. Good luck to you in your condemnation and judgement of everyone and everything, it sounds delightful.